design 101

Ok, is there some class i can take where someone can teach me how to make a hat without a pattern? Here's the key, it actually has to look like a hat when it's finished. I'm trying to figure out the right number to have for a baby hat, my first attempt is too small, the one i'm working on now is about the right size for my bf's 2 year old nephew, which is who is going to end up getting it. I was trying to make a baby hat for the grandbaby of a woman in my study group, i'll try again once the 2 year old had is done. I'm doing all of this knitting to keep myself so busy that maybe i'll forget that my bf is gone, and that i miss him so much i can't breathe. It's kind of working, but i'm still counting down until next Sunday. Oh well, we'll both live, seperation is good for a relationship sometimes. But he's getting the biggest hug and kiss the minute i see him again.